"YOU! YOU RUINED MY LIFE!!!"
Hmm... What to talk about...
Well, as normal, the reason I've been spurred to posting on this thing is because of bad things. Again. I'm kinda getting tired of it. And of course, this is directed mostly at Ashby, like always.
Ashby, I tried to give you a chance before, a few months ago, you remember that? Do you remember what you said to me after disappearing suddenly? You came back and said that this whole sitch was "in the past, where it was going to stay". Again, from out of no where, you betrayed me. Again. After you were so sure that you wanted to try and work things out, and you made all the promises that you wouldn't freak out again. Then, for no specific reason, you just tweaked and left, to leave me with the broken pieces of my trust. I'd told you that if you freaked out, I couldn't trust you ever again.
So, there I was, trying to stop cursing myself for being stupid enough to trust you again, trying to heal myself again, and here you come, tearing me down and harrassing me, when I've told you to leave me alone, I've asked nicely, I've ordered you to, and yet you still tormented me. I don't understand, if you're supposed to be practicing this good Christian stuff, why you can't just respect somebody's wishes to be left alone when you've burned your bridges with them and broken their trust several times. And I don't want you to lash out and say that you're trying, that you're sorry, and that you're done appologizing, because you've done it once or twice. If I had a quarter for every time you've appologized and said that you meant it, and that you were going to try and earn my trust back, I'd be rich.
I know you're going to freak out with your whole pride stuff, and say that you're done appologizing and whatever, and get all mean and mad again, but if you're going to do that, please, do it on your own blog, since I don't read it at all anymore. I'm tired of the personal attacks being made on me because all I want is to try and get some peace of mind and try and work through all of the grief you've caused me and Lexi. And as for your friends, if they're all the good Christians they claim to be, they shouldn't be vengeful and come after me, making personal stupid ass remarks like calling themselves by my name on my own tag and saying that I'm a lesbian and shit like that. I know that was your sister, and I know your mother would be horrifed at her behavior, as you should be, as well. I'm tired of being attacked for just wanting to have some peace, I'm tired of fighting with you and that whole issue, I've turned the other cheek one too many times and got slapped for it, and I won't do it again. As far as I'm concerned, I've been following the Christian values that you say you're trying to pursue, and you've been the one to turn around and keep on attacking me when I've been nothing but non confrontational with you and just asking you to leave me alone.
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"YOU! YOU RUINED MY LIFE!!!"
Hmm... What to talk about...
Well, as normal, the reason I've been spurred to posting on this thing is because of bad things. Again. I'm kinda getting tired of it. And of course, this is directed mostly at Ashby, like always.
Ashby, I tried to give you a chance before, a few months ago, you remember that? Do you remember what you said to me after disappearing suddenly? You came back and said that this whole sitch was "in the past, where it was going to stay". Again, from out of no where, you betrayed me. Again. After you were so sure that you wanted to try and work things out, and you made all the promises that you wouldn't freak out again. Then, for no specific reason, you just tweaked and left, to leave me with the broken pieces of my trust. I'd told you that if you freaked out, I couldn't trust you ever again.
So, there I was, trying to stop cursing myself for being stupid enough to trust you again, trying to heal myself again, and here you come, tearing me down and harrassing me, when I've told you to leave me alone, I've asked nicely, I've ordered you to, and yet you still tormented me. I don't understand, if you're supposed to be practicing this good Christian stuff, why you can't just respect somebody's wishes to be left alone when you've burned your bridges with them and broken their trust several times. And I don't want you to lash out and say that you're trying, that you're sorry, and that you're done appologizing, because you've done it once or twice. If I had a quarter for every time you've appologized and said that you meant it, and that you were going to try and earn my trust back, I'd be rich.
I know you're going to freak out with your whole pride stuff, and say that you're done appologizing and whatever, and get all mean and mad again, but if you're going to do that, please, do it on your own blog, since I don't read it at all anymore. I'm tired of the personal attacks being made on me because all I want is to try and get some peace of mind and try and work through all of the grief you've caused me and Lexi. And as for your friends, if they're all the good Christians they claim to be, they shouldn't be vengeful and come after me, making personal stupid ass remarks like calling themselves by my name on my own tag and saying that I'm a lesbian and shit like that. I know that was your sister, and I know your mother would be horrifed at her behavior, as you should be, as well. I'm tired of being attacked for just wanting to have some peace, I'm tired of fighting with you and that whole issue, I've turned the other cheek one too many times and got slapped for it, and I won't do it again. As far as I'm concerned, I've been following the Christian values that you say you're trying to pursue, and you've been the one to turn around and keep on attacking me when I've been nothing but non confrontational with you and just asking you to leave me alone.