Saturday, November 22, 2003

Hey, yeah, if things couldn't get worse.... Oh well. I'm in here, talking to Mina about some things that I had on my mind, and Lex comes in. I was telling her some of the stuff, just the general gist, and I didn't want her to see some of the stuff I'd said. None of it was about her, it's just stuff I don't feel comfortable sharing with her, cause I really feel like she'd look down on me, and so she gets up and gets mad at me! Do you know I actually CRIED because of that?! I'm so near the breaking point with her. She doesn't show me any sympathy about anything I'm going through, hell, she doesn't even ask how my days are anymore! I'm really starting to think she doesn't want me around, she doesn't want to make this work. Which puts me in a bad position. *shakes head* I've been the strong one for so fucking long, and I'm wearing thin. She's gotta meet me halfway, or I'm just going to break down. She's just rude and mean to me lately, and it's really hurting me. I don't know what to do. It's like, yeah, ok, you're mad and bitter because your heart got broken, but frankly, if Chris was any sort of man, he wouldn't have done that to her. And, um, hello! Others are having problems, too! I've been there for her through the entire thing, and she can't even be supportive of me when I need it most! I feel like CRAP, my heart's broken, and now she's just being mean! Frankly, I know she could pull out of this, but some part of me thinks that she just doesn't want to, she doesn't give a crap about anyone anymore, she doesn't care about me or our friendship. Well, Lexi, if you're reading this, you said you regretted not telling people how you felt for them. Now would be a good time to tell me how you feel about me, because you're breaking my heart with all of this. If you know your weakness, conquor it, because you're going to destroy our friendship if you don't. I've been in too many one sided friendships to keep getting treated like this and take it. If you care, tell me, and try to stop being like this. I can help you, but it's just not acceptable anymore, I can't keep taking this shit, it hurts me as much as the deal with Sky.

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|8:14 PM|


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