I'm going to kill him.
I've never been more sure about anything in my entire life than the hatred I feel right now towards Chris. He hurt my Lexi. For that, he deserves all that I have planned for him. And more, but that's Mina's part. The rage is out of control, and the hatred even worse. I can't believe him, can't believe that this is the one I set my best friend up with.
And I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed not only of him, but of myself.
How could I have not seen it coming? I mean, c'mon, there had to have been something. I should've seen it somewhere along the line, I should've stopped and said, "Hey, wait, that's weird. Maybe this isn't right." I didn't, though, and now my best friend's heart his broken, and I can't wait to get my hands on the little bastard that did it to her. The thing is, I just wonder how much of a hypocrite he's been turned into in the last what, four days? I mean, c'mon, he broke his promise and betrayed Lexi. The seventh circle of hell is reserved for betrayers. And, you know what really bothers me, is that I'm looking forward to knowing he's in the worst place ever created, because of what he's done. There is no forgiving. There is no praying. There is just revenge, and enjoying it. Because, let's face it folks, revenge is sweet. I don't care how it's served. As long as it winds up on the table sooner or later.
This whole episode has cost me precious sleep, and last night, I got one hour. WHOO HOO!!! Isn't that great? *snort* I sat up and thought. And thought. And thought. And, hey, thought some more. I searched my soul, trying to find the answers to the questions I don't have. I'm trying to figure out how I could have let this slip by me, how I could have been so stupid as to let it happen. So many things I could have done to have prevented it. Hell, truthfully, if we hadn't gone up there, we'd all be ok.
It's that damn promise that gets me. He knew this was coming, he knew it, that's why he avoided everybody, and he didn't even tell his sister, she had to find out from Lexi. But you know what, that promise was even my fault. I was the one who asked the damn question. It's beause of me that promise was said. I shouldn't have said anything. It was my fault.
I told Lexi that I was searching myself for an answer. Like I said before, I don't even know what the question is. I'm sitting here, I don't know which way to turn, I feel like both Lexi and I are drowning, and I'm trying desperately to keep us both afloat, trying to keep us both breathing, but I can't find out which way's up, and I just keep turning and turning and turning, looking for anything, any way out.
I cried and I screamed at the computer when Lexi told me. I had an absolute meltdown. I felt like my heart had been broken, too. Lexi and I are linked, and I do believe on some level our spirits are bonded, for I've never felt like this about anyone else, felt their pain like it was my own. I'll be driving, too, and all of a sudden, I'll just start crying. I feel all of it, and sometimes in a more concentrated shock than I've ever felt before in my life. I've had to pull off the road and sit and cry and sob until I get myself under control and come home.
I don't know what to do, I don't know what the questions that I need answers to are. That frustrates me. beyond all reasoning.
When I figure it out, I'll let you know.
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I'm going to kill him.
I've never been more sure about anything in my entire life than the hatred I feel right now towards Chris. He hurt my Lexi. For that, he deserves all that I have planned for him. And more, but that's Mina's part. The rage is out of control, and the hatred even worse. I can't believe him, can't believe that this is the one I set my best friend up with.
And I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed not only of him, but of myself.
How could I have not seen it coming? I mean, c'mon, there had to have been something. I should've seen it somewhere along the line, I should've stopped and said, "Hey, wait, that's weird. Maybe this isn't right." I didn't, though, and now my best friend's heart his broken, and I can't wait to get my hands on the little bastard that did it to her. The thing is, I just wonder how much of a hypocrite he's been turned into in the last what, four days? I mean, c'mon, he broke his promise and betrayed Lexi. The seventh circle of hell is reserved for betrayers. And, you know what really bothers me, is that I'm looking forward to knowing he's in the worst place ever created, because of what he's done. There is no forgiving. There is no praying. There is just revenge, and enjoying it. Because, let's face it folks, revenge is sweet. I don't care how it's served. As long as it winds up on the table sooner or later.
This whole episode has cost me precious sleep, and last night, I got one hour. WHOO HOO!!! Isn't that great? *snort* I sat up and thought. And thought. And thought. And, hey, thought some more. I searched my soul, trying to find the answers to the questions I don't have. I'm trying to figure out how I could have let this slip by me, how I could have been so stupid as to let it happen. So many things I could have done to have prevented it. Hell, truthfully, if we hadn't gone up there, we'd all be ok.
It's that damn promise that gets me. He knew this was coming, he knew it, that's why he avoided everybody, and he didn't even tell his sister, she had to find out from Lexi. But you know what, that promise was even my fault. I was the one who asked the damn question. It's beause of me that promise was said. I shouldn't have said anything. It was my fault.
I told Lexi that I was searching myself for an answer. Like I said before, I don't even know what the question is. I'm sitting here, I don't know which way to turn, I feel like both Lexi and I are drowning, and I'm trying desperately to keep us both afloat, trying to keep us both breathing, but I can't find out which way's up, and I just keep turning and turning and turning, looking for anything, any way out.
I cried and I screamed at the computer when Lexi told me. I had an absolute meltdown. I felt like my heart had been broken, too. Lexi and I are linked, and I do believe on some level our spirits are bonded, for I've never felt like this about anyone else, felt their pain like it was my own. I'll be driving, too, and all of a sudden, I'll just start crying. I feel all of it, and sometimes in a more concentrated shock than I've ever felt before in my life. I've had to pull off the road and sit and cry and sob until I get myself under control and come home.
I don't know what to do, I don't know what the questions that I need answers to are. That frustrates me. beyond all reasoning.
When I figure it out, I'll let you know.