Friday, July 18, 2003

Yeah, hmm, ok. Having another one of those days. I haven't blogged in hella long, and I'm really tired right now. Lexi's not online, nobody's posted, and i got my heart stomped on last night. Yep, besides Casey, whom I've liked for a few weeks, and who moved to Alaska and neglecting to tell me of this small fact, there's another one. Yup. Found out he's got a girlfriend. I'm about ready to just go nuts. Again with the crazy pity party. Yeah. Sick of waiting. Sick of being alone. Sick of the whole damn thing. I'm just flat out sick. Worried about the trip, like always, I think I'm going to worry until the day I get home. Money, that's always the problem. The mechanics said it would be under a hundred bucks to do a safety check, now it's over four. Yeah, so, I'm a little peaved. But mostly, I'm just down. Kinda falling back into my old self habits, I just don't want to do anything, don't want anyone to bother me, just want to sleep and eat, emphasis on the sleep. Just a whole bunch of bull and nothing to do with it. It's going to be so nice to get out of the area for a bit, really refreshing I hope. I'm just so blah right now, and this thing with Tom really wore me out, I really am past trying anymore. I hate it, hate the whole thing, the whole game. Hell, I even got a "if I wasn't with her, I'd be with you". Yeah, nice sentimental words, mean shit to me when I'm still single. Grrr..... So tired, falling asleep in my chair.......

~Cheska~

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|10:42 PM|


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