Well, my day started out ok, ended up crappier than ever.
I think I've just lost my best friend, and that hurts more than anything in the whole world. What she said about me.... It hurts more than anything I've ever felt. That I overshadowed her in everything we do. I must be a monster, if I'm so bad towards someone I care about so much. I don't even know what to say to her, I ran away like a baby, it just caught me so off guard..... It hurts to think that now all our future planning is shot to shit. Had such dreams, I was so excited, I thought she felt the same. But apparantly not, apparantly I overshadowed her. God, I feel so horrible. I mean..... I think she resented me from the beginning. It all started over a guy, and I thought she'd gotten past that. He fell for me, not her, but shortly thereafter, she found her soul mate. She refused to speak to him for a long time, as if it was his fault, and I thought she'd gotten past it, she was talking to him again..... How could I have not seen it? God, I feel like shit. I want to appologize to her, want everything to be ok, but..... I don't know how it can be, if she resents me so much for something that wasn't my fault. She made it seem like I wanted to and made it a point to overshadow her, to push her out or something like that.
I just wish she'd..... I don't know. Speak to me again. I wish she knew how much I care about her, how much I don't want to hurt her, I never wanted to hurt her, I always wanted to be there for her. But I don't even know if she's ever going to read this blog, I might just be writing it for myself. Well, if you're reading this, Lexi, I'm sorry for whatever it was that I did to you.
Name-Cheska
Age-22
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Graduated from- Gryffindor
bday-10/19
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Get Ron and Hermione to finally date
Make Umbridge disappear
Bring Dumbledore back to life!!!!
Buy a hippogriff
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Well, my day started out ok, ended up crappier than ever.
I think I've just lost my best friend, and that hurts more than anything in the whole world. What she said about me.... It hurts more than anything I've ever felt. That I overshadowed her in everything we do. I must be a monster, if I'm so bad towards someone I care about so much. I don't even know what to say to her, I ran away like a baby, it just caught me so off guard..... It hurts to think that now all our future planning is shot to shit. Had such dreams, I was so excited, I thought she felt the same. But apparantly not, apparantly I overshadowed her. God, I feel so horrible. I mean..... I think she resented me from the beginning. It all started over a guy, and I thought she'd gotten past that. He fell for me, not her, but shortly thereafter, she found her soul mate. She refused to speak to him for a long time, as if it was his fault, and I thought she'd gotten past it, she was talking to him again..... How could I have not seen it? God, I feel like shit. I want to appologize to her, want everything to be ok, but..... I don't know how it can be, if she resents me so much for something that wasn't my fault. She made it seem like I wanted to and made it a point to overshadow her, to push her out or something like that.
I just wish she'd..... I don't know. Speak to me again. I wish she knew how much I care about her, how much I don't want to hurt her, I never wanted to hurt her, I always wanted to be there for her. But I don't even know if she's ever going to read this blog, I might just be writing it for myself. Well, if you're reading this, Lexi, I'm sorry for whatever it was that I did to you.